HAVING REGRETS IS AN AMAZINGLY AWFUL EXPERIENCE

        Everyone has had to deal with some type of regret in their lives. It is impossible to go all the way through life without making a wrong decision or saying something you wish you hadn't said. Sometimes our regrets are so big that we would resort to finding ways to change the past. Still, these mistakes make up who we are and how we've come to be ourselves. These things remind us that we are human, not perfect, like anybody else. 

        The past few years have been a very challenging experience for me. A lot of events had taken place and these have sent me down a road I should never have gone down. I never really had a serious life changing experience and the regrets I have are mostly about my test answers. But when I became older, I realized that the biggest and worst regret I had in life is not for the wrong things that I did but for the millions of right things I did for the wrong people. 

          I am not a very sociable person and because of that, I always have a lot of trouble in making friends. Fortunately, I became friends with a few people who I can share my thoughts and feelings with. Time passed like a blink of an eye and I felt like I was the luckiest person in the universe. My friends turned from few to many. I was really happy about that and I trusted them more than I trust myself. That was my mistake. I was so busy prioritizing them that I didn't realize that they didn't consider me as their friend. I was only the laughing stock of the group and all the secrets that I told them were used against me. My appearance, my clothes, they were all just jokes to them. Sometimes I even apologize to even though I didn't do anything wrong to them. I never felt so sad and disappointed my whole life. 

        After that, I decided to stand up for myself and made myself stronger. I did some things that I can  do to resolve and even avoid some regrets that I had. I convinced myself that living with regrets is like driving a car in reverse. When I make a decision, I promised myself that I would let it go and not question myself. I told myself that I will always accept the outcome no matter what the consequences are. I try to figure out what I did wrong but I won't dwell on it too long. And the most important thing of all, I promised myself that I would have more confidence on what I can do. Even if I think it was the wrong decision, I would do my best to make it work and move on. 

         I've been walked on, used, and regretted a lot of times but it is in those moments that I've learned a lot and discovered who I am. I learned who I can trust and can’t, I learned the true meaning of friendship, I learned how to tell when people are false and when they are sincere, and the most important lesson that I learned is how to appreciate the truly great people in my life as they arrive. Don't let yourself get caught up in the past because if you don't, you will never be able to face your future without fear.